Long Week and the Need for a Vacation: Weekly post

Overlapping calendar pages on a table beneath warm circular light

Today is Monday. For a moment I thought it’s wednesday. Damn. This one’s going to be a long long week. The good part is that I work for only four out of six days. I need a really long vacation away from here. I need a new place with new faces around me. No work. Just slow hours passing slowly. Me having a few drinks in the evening until time to get in warm bed and sleep. Much is happening in the world. Much more happening with me. I’m burdened beyond anything. I don’t know where my days are going. Damn. Eight months are almost over. I’ve done nothing. Nothing. Now, listening to Cohen. I love his voice and his poetry. He was a solid man.

Today is Sunday. Night already. I thought I’d write something here every day. I failed. I hadn’t much time in this week. I did manage to write more regularly. I travelled but not too far from home. I had two short trips. I’ve started giving more time to photography as well. I’m cutting down on my drinking habits. I’ve stopped smoking cigarettes. September is soon. By October, I would love to bring my life back on fast track. Now, listening to Dylan. His voice takes me to a place that’s peaceful.

Tomic

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  1. shaun tenzenmen Avatar

    It is coincidence that I read this this morning and reminded me of your line about thinking that it will be a long week ahead.

    Life puts many responsibilities on us. It can feel
    overwhelming. If we carry all of our responsibilities in a
    single moment, this is what leads to worry, overwhelm, and
    stress. When we look at the day ahead, we only see how much
    we have yet to do. Imagine two people waking on the very
    same morning, each with an equally full day ahead of them.
    The first opens his eyes and immediately sees the whole
    mountain of the day laid out before him. The messages
    waiting to be answered, the errands still undone, the meeting
    he is dreading, the dishes left in the sink from the night
    before. All of it arrives at once, pressing down on him before
    his feet have even touched the floor. The weight of it is so
    heavy that it becomes far easier to simply close his eyes and
    remain beneath the covers a little longer.

    The second wakes and thinks of only one thing: placing his
    feet upon the floor. Once this is done, he thinks only of
    rising from the bed. Once he is standing, he thinks only of
    dressing himself. Once dressed, he thinks only of brushing
    his teeth. Then only of preparing his breakfast. Then only of
    walking out the door. He does not carry tomorrow’s tasks,
    nor even the afternoon’s. He carries only the single stone in
    front of him. By evening, both have lived through the very
    same day. Yet the first has been crushed beneath its weight
    since the moment he woke, while the second has simply
    moved, stone by stone, until the mountain was gone.
    This one truth must be grasped. We are not overwhelmed or
    worried by the amount of responsibilities placed on us. We
    overwhelm ourselves by carrying all of them at once.

    The only thing that demands our attention is what is in front
    of us, right now. Do not carry the world on your shoulders
    from your bedroom. Do not try to place the whole mountain
    on your back. Focus solely on the stone that is in front of
    you. Pick it up, set it down, and then carry the next. The
    mountain will vanish, as will your worries and stress.

    I have to constantly remind myself about these things…

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