Tag: poem

  • Just like any other dusk.

    I went to the roof, just like I did the day before yesterday
    the crows gathered at 6:30, just like they must have yesterday,
    talking among themselves in a language I still have not been able to decode
    I have stopped trying for now, watching them is easier than understanding them
    by 6:38, the sun had reduced to a red dot, falling fast behind a lump of mountains
    I kept looking at it until it disappeared
    the wind had begun to gain speed
    all the crows were gone
    I walked with many short steps for some time, then stopped to feel the wind,
    then resumed my walking
    I walked like it was my own, personal paradise
    the village boys had stopped playing
    the sky had almost lost all its light
    fewer people remained outside,
    I being one of them, walking with short steps between no specific spots
    in the presence of wind, I did not feel the need of a song
    in the absence of wind, life seems more difficult than it would be in the absence of food
    I can live with hunger for a good long time
    I saw people walking, like every day, on the roofs of their homes rather than walking on the streets
    they find it safer on the roofs these days, as if the virus won't be able reach there and infect them
    I am not like them, I go to the roof just for the sunset and the wind
    by 7:15, everything went dark
    I could see nothing, nothing saw me
    few minutes later, I saw a lady arriving on the roof while talking loudly on her cellphone
    she was followed shortly by a man 
    I do not know if they saw me
    for the remaining time for which I was on the roof, the lady kept talking loudly on her cellphone
    while her man kept looking at her and sometimes at other things
    I walked for some more time
    then I started walking downstairs to my room
    I turned off all the lights on the way down,
    walked to my room, unlocked it, and went inside.

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  • The clock chimes no more.

    Day 5 or day 39 or day 42 or whatever day. Who cares. We kill our own times. Life is too long or too short to keep track of anything. Sooner than you realize, you go back to being the same shithead that you decided innumerable times to never be again.

    It’s going to be a half-moon night with no stars dancing. There’s no quarantine in my line of work. I am meant to die in the field while talking to some brainless jerk. I am meant to eat cannon balls. ‘Go ahead. Eat it. Eat that as well. Eat all of that. Come on! Eat fast. It’s for the good of your own people. ‘ Well, you got to eat all of that even if you got no people of your own. Frankly, in my line of work, you got no life of your own. You live with a false sense of satisfaction. You have got the love of people, even their claps and kisses but what in the hell, where I am about to go, will I do of all the claps and kisses? What will I do with all of that if I cannot have, in these trying times, even simple things that I actually, really want like meat and beer? People. People. People. They hardly understand your side of things. Their lives, inside their little heads, is far too important than anything else. They drown in their own piss of emotions without even knowing when did the drowning begin. They cannot even watch themselves for just a second. Like simply watch. ‘What’s there to watch in oneself?’ they would say. Well, if nothing is there then why so much fuss.

    I am watching the burnt rice from yesterday night, burnt at the bottom of the vessel. Things can go to hell in no time. A little here and there and it’s done. Your life is done. You are no more. You cease to exist here and go back to hell for some time. And in hell, it’s just your soul in the frying pan, smiling in pain all the time. As of now, I have put the burnt rice in the garbage bin, and I now wait to throw it out once its smell becomes unbearable.

    The virus is spreading faster now. It has started liking the people here. It is everywhere now, breathing our air, sleeping on our sofas, taking a summer swim in our glasses of water, kissing our toilet seats, chewing our brain nerves, inhaling our farts, dying in our abdominal acid. It is fucking everywhere, and its message is clearer than that of any God.

    — TOMIC RITER